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Ulcerative Colitis Diary: Week Eleven On Prednisolone

Posted by DeadAnarchistPhil on April 5, 2011

Green = How well I feel 1 being the best and 10 being the worse.

Blue = Depression. Again, on a scale as above.

Treatment for: Ulcerative Colitis.

Medication, Direction and Course as follows:

Prednisolone : Take four One 5mg Tablet(s) daily for four weeks [Now six weeks], then cut down by one tablet a week each week over the next four [Now three] weeks. Untill I see the specialists in April 2011.

Day 71 Tue 29th March 2011: (Been normal today, not much to report besides a low-mood still.

Went to the toilet, was normal. I pushed it today! I had another Big Mac for my tea, seeing as no one had gone shopping again and someone was going so I had a Big Mac. We’ll see how it affects me. (2/10) (6/10)

Day 72 Wed 30th March 2011: Went to the toilet twice today, which is something I havent done very often for the last two weeks. Both times it was normal, but I two motions with the second, the second wasn’t that formed and I actually had some abdominal tenderness. Maybe eating that Big Mac was a bad idea! I hope this is just a blip.

Did some light exercise, back strengthening, press-ups, squats, punching with weights in hand, stretching and walked on the treadmill for six minutes. During it and after I felt sick! And that was only light, I also felt abdominal twinges! I hope this doesn’t happen every time! (2/10) (6/10)

Day 73 Thu 31st March 2011: Went to the toilet not long after getting up, 1pm, and it’s less formed but still in the bracket of ‘normal’. Again, hoping this is just a blip and not a result of that Big Mac I ate!

Still feel funny inside, not sure if it was the Big Mac, Exercise or low-mood! We’ll see.

Did some more exercise, but only gentle, to increase my back-strength and over all muscle-strength. Felt sick and dizzy after it. Mood still low. (2/10)(7/10)

Day 74 Fri 1st April 2011: Things have gone back to normal.

Mood still low. (2/10) (7/10)

Day 75 Sat 2nd April 2011: Went to bed at 6am this day, I had a panic attack of sorts, the first time since 2006. Luckily I can control them, I just breathed through my nose normally and tried to relax. It made me feel better but didn’t get rid of the tightness in my chest fully. But it worked to a degree because I fell asleep.

The quality of sleep itself wasn’t that good either, I kept waking up and dreamed it was the end of the world, everyone seemed to be calm about it for some reason! I woke up at 12:30pm and had something to eat while I took my tablets. Then I went back to bed and slept untill 6pm. Still felt shitty when I got up.

Went to the toilet twice! Had the urgency feeling the second time. Still OK though. (2/10) (7/10)

Day 76 Sun 3rd April 2011: Woke up late after staying up to 9am! Woke at 1am and took tabs and then went back to bed. Woke up at 8pm.

Toilet visit was normal and mood still low. (2/10) (7/10)

Day 77 Mon 4th April 2011: Went back to bed at 12am, I was so tired and just fucked off I need to get away from everyone and everything. Didn’t sleep at all, just rested for an hour or so and then got back up again.

Still feel tired and fucked off, more than I have for a while. I find it funny (I don’t actually, I find it annoying), I was planning to do my full exercises again today, and I get this wave of demotivation! A feeling of lethargy, misanthropy and a feeling of  Nihilism coupled with sadness and Nihilism. I’m sick of this mindset, OCD or whatever it is, it’s sending me mental! 

OK, just read that back, that’s enough of that! (2/10) (8/10)


11 Responses to “Ulcerative Colitis Diary: Week Eleven On Prednisolone”

  1. jennyozzy said

    hope your feeling better soon phil must be awful feeling so low but only you can talk yourself better from low moods should we talk politics lol that will get you going aww dont tell me off im trying to cheer you up get feeling good soon phil xxjen

    • I aint gonna shout at you Jen! lol I’ve had some incredibly trying people talk to me over the years and I never shouted at them. You’re a million times more friendly and sensible than them, so don’t worry :).

      Talk politics? It makes me shit! Maybe that’s what causes the UC? lol

      Thank you for your support, Jen! 🙂

  2. prenin said

    Hi Phil.

    So far so good mate! 🙂

    Yeah I get panic attacks too – usually ending with my lying on the bathroom floor so the loo is in easy reach should I throw up, which happens far too often I’m afraid…

    Sorry you feel so bad – but it’s not going to last forever! 🙂

    God Bless my friend!


    • You sat near the toilet? Sounds like me with UC!

      I’ve never had anxiety that bad, except for the time I was in hospital with UC and felt like I was having a heart attack. I’ve never had one that bad since because I can control them.

      I hope I wont, man! Thank you for the support as always, Ian! Have a good evening! :O)

  3. hrhdaf said

    Moooooorning Phil!
    Well it seems to me the tablets are having a pretty good effect, so long as you dont push it. Maybe your body needs a bit more time to heal before you start dosing it with Big Macs and exercise? Oh maaaaaaaan… its years since I had a big mac… om nom nom! Have you thought about just having a wee potter about your garden rather than treadmills and stuff? Just to begin with cos its a nice gentle form of exercise.
    Strikes me your moods dont have that much of a connection to your UC (other than maybe cos it makes you tired that gets you a bit down?) they sound more like depression to me. Sad, lethergic, not wanting to be around people… I mean its completely understandable considering what youve been through, but maybe you need to tackle it as a different problem?

    Anyway Im sending ya hugs and hoping today finds you feeling a bit brighter!
    Moocho love Daf xxx

    • Afternoon/Evening/Morning.. depending on when ya read this! ;O)

      First of all Whoppers are 100 times better…

      That is just mouth-watering! Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm *drools*

      Yes, the tablets do work and point taken on the exercise. I only did 15 mins walking on the tredmil and 7 mins on the exercise bike yesterday evening (it’s not in the post because I never went back on the PC after that and my UC blogs are always set to post in advance) and I felt worse after it. My back feels weaker despite the exercise I do for them and I’ve also had an headache since I did the exercise yesterday evening.

      I have been doing it in a gentle form though, for the last two weeks on and off, prepairing myself for exercise. And what I did was only light anyway! And it fucks me up!

      It still annoys me though because I’m not going to lose weight and get healthy just pottering around the garden, assuming I can muster the motivation to do it. Like previous years am lacking funds again so my garden’s going to be bare in places and not be how I want it. I would plant seeds but the cats dig them up and the slugs & snails from the neighbour’s garden also take their toll on them. Oh, there’s also how completely shit my soil is for sowing seeds!

      Yeh, it is more than low-moods and is not always connected to the UC. It has been tackled as a different problem, and noting changed.

      Brighter? Am in my room with a headache and back just waiting to give in on me! LOL!

      Much love to you too mate! Hugskissssssssssssssssssss to tha Daf! (^^)

      • Androgoth said

        Just watch out for those Blood Glucose Levels, the Skeletons with
        Wanker Disorder and any Neighbouring Asswipes with the pangs for your
        next BIG MAC SPECIAL… Of course the fainting spell could have been
        some undigested Cheese or a Pizza from Cameron’s larder, as some of
        his Trotski speeches are noted as being a clear case of Parliamentary
        Dickbrain Syndrome, which is common amongst newly promoted Knobheads.

        Actually there is a Seminar on this subject called ‘Neanderthal Hop’
        it’s a kind of Half Arse get together for MP’s with a lower IQ than
        a Farting Goat… I guess it will be a rather popular Seminar and cram
        packed too considering all the Crap that is going on around the country
        at the moment… Anyway Phil, just try and take things easy and if you
        do fancy a jump… around the garden then choose some gentler exercises
        such as sitting and watching the flowers grow, or ogling the birds…

        They say that Ostrich Farming is a nice way of relaxing in the garden,
        but there are limits you know? Okay glad to have helped you out… lol

        Be Good, Be Wicked
        and above all, Behave Yourself…

        Androgoth ; )

        • LOL! What ya like, Andro?

          Cameron, with a Trostski speech? LOL! You know, with him being the complete opposite from Trotski that’s very unlikely to happen or have happened. But, with this be politics, I wouldn’t be surprised in the slightest if he was a Trotskist! haha

          “Parliamentary Dickbrain Syndrome, which is common amongst newly promoted Knobheads.” Like it! hahaha

          Hey, I wouldn’t ogle the birds around here if you paid me! Wait, which ones we talking about here? lol

          Anyway, thanks for the support Andro and the laugh! :O) Have a good evening now and you behave also, some people are attached to their foreskins you know! LOL! ;o)

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