Well it’s been well over 12 weeks and the Adalimumab has done diddly-squat. In fact things have become much worse.
I was averaging 8 toilet visits a day with blood, mucus, tiredness, urgency, cramps sweating etc. It then went up to 10 on average but being as as high as 15 times a day. Because of this I had to go back on to Prednisolone to reduce the inflammation and enable me to go to the hospital for a blood test to see if there’s scope to increase my dose of Adalimumab. I couldn’t make the first 3 appointments because the UC was so bad, but made the 4th, that was over 2 weeks ago and I’m still waiting for the results. In the meantime I’m coming down off the Predisolone, although it has helped a bit, now that I’m coming off it symptoms are getting worse again.
Not only that, the combination of bad UC (it being active and having to cut down meal sizes) most this year and the Prednisolone, has made me lose weight. I was 22st in April, I’m not just over 19st, I lost nearly a stone in the last week or so (I can stand to lose some weight anyway). The Pred has made my steroid-induced diabetes (yes, Pred gave me it last time) go out of control, regardless of what and how little I eat. My eyesight is blurred again, I’m thirsty and weeing a lot. Add to that the constant feeling of tiredness, complete lack of concentration and the crushing boredom of sitting still and you’ve got yourself a great time!
I even tried to do some windows paint colouring of pictures I drew a while ago, just to pass the time, and I just can’t concentrate at all, nor do I have the patience anymore. Just sitting at the desk made my insides sore and made me feel sick. I can’t read for long either, whenever I do I get a pressure behind my eyes. It’s even been difficult to listen to music for some reason. It’s like life is insistent on sucking the fucking fun out of everything! Even typing this is fucking difficult. I think the headache stuff may be the high blood sugars. I would just come off the steroids but you can’t ‘just come off ‘ them because you get withdrawal symptoms.
So yeh, I’m waiting for blood results, if the test comes back saying there’s scope to increase my current dose I’ll stay on the Adalimumab. If not, it’s on to something else. Seeing ass my Azathioprine, Salofalk, Adalimumabe and a course of steroids are barely making a difference, I don’t think an upped dose will do much. In fact I think my body has got used to the Aza and Salofalk now anyway, I’ll probably end up coming off them.
In other news, the SNP are still sticking to their mission of “FREEEEDOOOOOOOM” from the evil English Empire, sorry, I mean Westminster. There is no solid economic, political or cultural case for Scottish independence. In fact independence would likely damage the economy and it would not recover for possibly a decade (of course the English would be blamed for this).
That’s not to say Scotland wouldn’t recover and make a go of it eventually, it’s going to be painful getting there, but they could succeed in the end. Though that’s what the SNP consistently avoid talking about. Same with the currency issue, they can use the pound if they wish, but they will not be in control of it. For instance, Panama has the U.S. dollar as its currency, but has zero control over momentary policy. You can bet if Scotland does go independent the SNP will use the control the Bank of England has as scapegoat/deflection for why the Scottish economy is failing.
They couldn’t join the EU straight away either, they would have to deal with their share of the UK debt before joining the EU, which would come at the expense of deep cuts to Scotland’s public services. This is something else the SNP choose to not talk about, although they say it’s not their debt as it was borrowed by Westminster on their behalf and if they had control they would not be in so much debt. The fact is the Holyrood was given control over tax, spending and welfare back in 2015, and since then they’ve either refused to implement policy or handed the powers back (like with Welfare). This from an administration who said they could get a separate country up-and-running in 18 months. They’re just as shambolic and useless as the shower of bastards in Westminster.
However, if the UK can vote to leave the EU and take an economic hit that will hurt, then so Scotland can leave the UK and take an economic hit, as long as they know how hard it will be. It will be a lot harder for Scotland to leave the UK, though. Leaving the EU with your own currency and central bank etc puts you in a better position to recover from the hit of political and financial decoupling from a block such as the EU. Scotland is lacking in these departments.
I also still don’t see the point of going from one union (UK) to another (EU) where things are only going to become more centralised and their voices drown out.
I support Black Lives Matter, but this is just disgusting! Not all BLM supporters are like this, but intimidating people to put their hands up and join you? Enforced solidarity? This is intimidation and borderline facisim, some of the things they’re protesting against. Though I’m not surprised, the left over the last 20 years has been bullying, deplatforming and shouting people down so much that they’re toxic as fuck and have become what they fought against. Not only has it damaged the BLM movement, that video will create more Trump supporters than anything else that Tangerine halfwit could ever come up. Well done! A spectacular own goal.
Morons who refuse to wear masks! You’re selfishness and stupidity is staggering! It makes me angry and sad. Just because you think you’re not at risk, doesn’t mean you can put others at risk. I was driven home by a taxi driver from the hospital who said “It’s a matter of choice”. What? It’s a matter of life or death for me, and I’m talking about his mask he should be wearing, not mine! This after I told him I was on 3 hefty doses of immunosurpressent drugs. Fucking idiot! Next time I’m asking for a driver with a mask. Certain masks aren’t 100% effective but it limits the chances of spreading it. If there’s a large 2nd wave of Covid-19 this Winter then there’s going to be a lot of mentions at the Darwin Awards, because even young, healthy people get the virus and die. An even if it doesn’t kill them it’s going to damage their bodies long after it’s gone.
Anyway that’s enough. I just had to vent and do something that wasn’t sitting still being bored, even though it’s taken me ages and pissed me off. I think I may have to avoid politics again in the future because it’s made me feel worse. I’m sorry for not replying to comments and visiting blogs, I’ll get around to everyone eventually, writing this has taken it out of me. Take care all and hopefully back sooner rather than later.